well im 16 now
and this is my first post on my brand new acer aspire one (laptop)
its a sub-notebook.
really sweet.
and small.
why is it when i actually have time i have nothing i can say?
i guess its because i dont know who exactly reads this...

i figure i should give you an explination
why i have been:
anti social
tense
untalkitive
depressed...
well thing is... :
every october i get really depressed
i just got my heart broken
i pulled my groin
i cant do point kicks
i cant spar much

but life is starting to improve
it will take about a year for my groin to heal
and i need to go to physiotherapy
but hey...
could be worse

im in the band room...
working on a song
something i have missed doing
so im gonna get back to that
bye for now

wha is this thing called love

and why did i have to prove someone right

my friend had a theory about me...
how i cant keep someone after i kiss them...

its true...
and it sucks

and i have reason to keep writing in this
PUTAWAYS
thats the reason
ugh
im on cash tonight
which sucks
life is confusing
and complicated
making new friends
im single again
which is good
because
COULD I HAVE BEEN MORE OF AN IDIOT

right now i am working on something.
it involves my camera
what im doing is this.
a photo dedication to some people...
you know how i do dedications on this?
instead of words i will use pictures...
this will take me a while
because it has to be perfect.

everyone seems to be going through problems right now.
i wish i could just take away everyone elses pain.


theres someone i really want to help.
and im trying
but she does not know me
or trust me
and her friends dont like me
and i dont know if she even wants my help
i just want to see her smile. and make everything ok for her.
i see the looks her friends give me when im near her.
the looks say "go away, you dont belong here."

listening to frou frou right now
and thinking
confused
but i know what im doing
i hope
Shadowstich

un named song

just a bit of confusion
and a little bit of hate
with a hint of ilusion
stuck in a mixed up state
then an unexpected twist
in an unwriten story
caused by taking a risk
and fighting for glory

its not as hard as it looks
dont look back and regret
treat life like an open book
dont you ever forget
the past gives you guide lines
rules to help make things right
dont focus on bad times
for the future will be bright

dont know where your going
and dont know who you are
pushed by the wind blowing
wishing on a shooting star
so close your eyes and dream
and embrace the new day
its not as bad as it seems
i promise its ok

its not as hard as it looks
dont look back and regret
treat life like an open book
dont you ever forget
the past gives you guide lines
rules to help make things right
dont focus on bad times
for the future will be bright

the days are falling down
and no one seems to care
feeling stuck in lonley town
but someones always there
to keep you safe and strong
so hold your head up high
and tho the days are long
you'll make it out alive

its not as hard as it looks
dont look back and regret
treat life like an open book
dont you ever forget
the past gives you guide lines
rules to help make things right
dont focus on bad times
for the future will be bright

yeah dont you ever forget
the past gives you guide lines
rules to help make things right
dont focus on bad times
for the future will be bright