http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFmdjvR1bYI

i love this song


and right now I'm listening to "I'm not OK" by my chemical romance

i really don't know what to write about
no clue at all
...
i have electronics next...
I'm the only girl in that class,
its fun, but SO disturbing.
the stuff talked about in that class *shudder*
eww


i dont update this very often
but how many people actualy read this
and do i have any divoted people, checking this all the time
if i do, tell me, and i will write more often

peace
shadowstich

Walmart

and this is just an idea

but im considering looking up some laws, (make sure its legal first)

then go around to walmarts,

and see if we can start a union for them, as they cant themselves.

in class we are watching movies about walmart

have any of you seen them

if not, you might not underttand

but if you have, then you know what im talking about

i dont want to stand by and watch others suffer

so im going to do something about it.

think about it. their lower prices? sounds nice

but why are their prices so low

sweat shops

but what can they do to me, someone from the outside, who will never work there

i still think it should be a class project.

but yeah

if i did, would anyone want to help?

updated

what to say
I'm just going to let my thoughts flow out
we talk to much, and not enough
what i mean is that we talk too much about things that are not important to us.
when it comes to something really important, it can be hard to talk about.
we need to be more open
and less judgemental
one of my friends (E) likes this guy(H), and thinks that another of my friends(J) also likes him, because she(J) put a few jokes on his face book wall, like saying "hi sexy" and "i sleep with your picture under my pillow"
what my one friend(E) cant understand is (J) is referring to some jokes in band class (which was very entertaining) but anyways (E) is now mad at (J) and taking it out on me
which is getting annoying, as she wont listen to me when i say (J) doesn't like him that way


sorry... i needed to get that off my mind.


i have been really happy lately
i don't really know why.
but I've noticed this
you need to be a friend to make friends
last year i was really antisocial
and guess what
i was a bit of a loner
this year i have a lot of friends
so yeah

i really love music
its enjoyable
i still cant understand how people can like rap like the song "this is why I'm hot" and not like any classical music
but to each their own

we focus too much on relationships
as in dating
right now most of us (as in grade 10,11, and 12) are desperate to be in relationships (not everyone, but a lot)
we need to realise that at our age relationships wont usually last forever
I'm not saying its bad to date
I'm just saying this
don't try to rush into a relationship
you may find the right person, and everything will be great
or you might date a guy/girl who you really like and they end up being a jerk
here is a bit of advice
make sure you know a lot about the person
make sure you talk to then at least once a week for awhile (at least if your in school with them)
this may not apply to everyone, but try to be friends with them before you date,
don't rush into the relationship,
for this i will use an example
you are running quickly, as fast as you can, (that would be to get into the relationship) then the wind blows against your back (that could be friends trying to help you but its speeding up you trying to get into the relationship) then you try to suddenly stop (you got into the relationship) but you cant stop, your momentum pushes you forward and you fall on your face (the relationship ends suddenly and quickly)
so don't try to rush things
everything will happen for a reason



yeah
some of these things most people wouldn't expect me to say
as last year, i did try to rush into relationships
and got hurt from them
Ive learned from my mistakes



but yeah
if there is anything you want me to talk about, just ask.


sing like no one is listening
dance like no one is watching
live like each day is your last (as in don't just sit there like a zombie all day)
love like you've never been hurt


(here is some good advice taken from the Tao of peace website)
Let compassion and truth be your guide when dealing with self and others.

peace
shadowstich

part of my story

A boy tossed and turned in his sleep, unaware that he was being watched by blood red eyes. The eyes belonged to a girl hidden in a tree outside the boy’s window. She slowly climbed through his open window, completely silent, using a technique she used to stalk her prey. The only sound in the room was the boys breathing. The girl did not even breathe, as she did not need to. She was a blood sucker, a vampire, creature of the night. Everyone who knew her in life believed her to be dead, which she was in a way. She was supposed to of died from the car accident

She had been rushed to the hospital, but there was no hope of saving her life. She remembered waking up in a dimly lit room with a woman who looked around twenty.

“I’m sorry. There was no other way. I had to change you.” The woman apologized softly.

“Ch-ch-change me? Who are you?” the girl whispered shakily. She was very confused

“I am Sani. I had to change you. Make you a vampire. They are not as bad as most myths make them out to be. Yes we do drink blood, but it doesn’t hurt the human you take the blood from. We don’t kill… or most of us don’t, but that’s the same with humans. There are a few vampires who enjoy killing their victims, but the vampire hunters are aware of them. The sun does not harm us, most don’t like garlic though, but that’s just because of the smell. Our sense of smell is stronger then the best rescue dogs.” Sani sighed “you will not be allowed to let your family know your still… in this world. You will be known from now on as Silver. If you let anyone know who you were, you must kill them, change them, or blood bond them. Blood bonding is making the human completely loyal to you.”

Silver just lay there, blinking, briefly thinking Sani was insane, until she realized she had no heart beat.

The sheets rustled and silver quickly remembered where she was. She looked at the boy. He was thin, tall, and slightly muscular, with short light blond hair. She wondered if he remembered her. Silver took a few steps closer to the sleeping boy, wishing she could just talk to him. She knew he would think he was dreaming, and if he knew what she was, he would probably fear her.



Silver heard the voice and could tell it was another vampire, male, and strong. She swore loudly and regretted it instantly.

“Who’s there?” an uncertain voice whispered.

Silver stayed completely still, listening as the boy sat up.

“I know someone’s here. Who are you? Why are you here?” his voice shook slightly

“Jack. I wont hurt you… relax.” Silver whispered, watching him, hoping he couldn’t see well in the dark.

“Who are you? You sound familiar.” Jack started to stand up.

“Jack.” She sighed softly “I’m sorry but…”

“But you’re only in my imagination…” he started crying “why must you haunt my dreams? Why did you have to die?” jack sounded both sad and angry.

Silver quickly made up her mind “jack I’m not your imagination. Your awake.” She took a few steps towards him, confused slightly. “Jack I’m really here.

“You died”

“not exactly” silver whispered and slowly put a hand on his shoulder, then she hugged him tightly “ my name now is silver. You cant use the one you used to know me as. I will explain everything to you later.”

Jack returned the hug then looked at her “what do you mean you didn’t exactly die?”

“how do I put this?” she sighed “jack, I wont hurt you… ever. I have never killed anyone. Jack. I’m a vampire. I was changed because I could not survive the crash. If I was not changed I would of drowned from my own blood. Vampires are not evil, at least I’m not…” she waited for him to shove her away, but instead he held her tighter/

“I don’t care what you are. I’m just glad you’re here now. I know you wouldn’t kill anyone, at least for no reason.” Jack said quietly “is it true you… drink blood?” he asked slightly shakily.

“Yes, but not often”

“Does it hurt?”

“Only if the vampire makes it”

“Do… do you need to feed soon?”

“In a few days” silver lied, knowing she must feed within the day

“What happens if you don’t?”

Silver said nothing, but shuddered as she remembered what she was told. “When your body doesn’t get the blood it needs, it will go into a coma, preparing for death. Yet you don’t die, not for a long time, you’re stuck in your body starving to death.”

“What happens if you don’t feed” jack asked again, worried now.

“I die.” Silver whispered, showing no emotions.

Jack went very pale and whimpered. Then he slowly got to his feet. “Stay here” he muttered and walked into another room.

Silver sat on his bed confused. Then she smelled the fresh tempting sent of blood. She watched jack walk back into his room and over to her. She saw a small cut on his neck with a few beads of blood forming. Jack sat next to her and brought her head to his neck. She licked the cut, and then carefully bit him. His blood was sweet and slightly metallic tasting. After a few minutes she pulled away from his neck and stared at him “th-thanks jack” she whispered, staring into his sky blue eyes.

“Feel better now?” jack asked, slightly pale. He looked back into her eyes then slowly leaned in and kissed her softly.

Silver blinked in surprise then kissed him back. Then she remembered the voice saying “one week.” She slowly broke the kiss. “Jack I need to tell you something.

“Yes silver?” he looked confused and worried “please don’t tell me I can never see you again.” He begged.

Silver explained what one had to do if a human found out they were a vampire. She also explained what the voice from earlier had said. She muttered quickly “I’ve been visiting your room every night”

“pardon?” jack asked, trying to figure out what her last sentence was.

“I’ve been visiting your room every night for the past year” she blushed as she said this.

Jack blushed brightly and then sighed “you have to kill me, change me, or blood bond me. I don’t want to die, or be changed, at least not yet. Blood bonding sounds like the only real option. What exactly does it involve?”

It involves the human to drink a bit of the vampire’s blood. The human then becomes pretty much the vampires slave.

CAKE IS A LIE

This Was A Triumph
I'm Making A Note Here:
HUGE SUCCESS
It's hard to overstate
my satisfaction.
Aperture Science
We do what we must
because we can.
For the good of all of us.
Except the ones who are dead.

But there's no sense crying
over every mistake.
You just keep on trying
till you run out of cake.
And the Science gets done.
And you make a neat gun.
For the people who are
Still Alive

I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart.
And killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because
I was so happy for you!

Now these points of data
make a beautiful line.
And we're out of beta.
We're releasing on time.
So I'm GLAD. I got burned.
Think of all the things we learned
for the people who are
still alive.

Go ahead and leave me.
I think I prefer to stay inside
.Maybe you'll find someone else
to help you.
Maybe Black Mesa. . .
THAT WAS A JOKE. HAHA FAT CHANCE.
Anyway. this cake is great.
It's so delicious and moist.
Look at me still talking
When Theres Science to do.
When I look out there,
it makes me GLAD I'm not you.
I've experiments to run.
There is research to be done.
On the people who are
still alive.

And believe me I am still alive.

I'm doing Science and I'm still alive.
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive.
While you're dying I'll be still alive.
And when you're dead I will be still alive.
STILL ALIVE

well im at school again
obviously
right now i am strangely Happy
although i am dreading getting a new wire today as it will hurt
so maybe you will see me drugged on painkillers (only if its really bad)
happy belated going door to door begging for candy day
here's a few things to think about
the only one who can hurt you is you
you are your own boss
depression is only what you think it is
nothing is certain (a bit of a paradox)
this sentance is a lie (PARADOX)
i will be getting a snake
and it will be named

PARADOX
peace
shadowstich