do you remember when we talked for hours on end?

ive been thinking of this one guy, and remembering one day we talked for 3 hours on the phone and then 5 hours on msn. his sister thought i was his girlfriend O.o and could scream REALLY loud.what did we talk about. anything... about 4 hours was us playing truth. it really makes me care about him, remembering that.

for any of you. challenge me to a game of truth, or the awkward game. but never ask things you dont want to know

well i must be off sadly before saying everything i want to say

i love you all

love luck and lollipops

shadowstich

wow... this is a few days in a row

well i have been thinking again. i do that a lot these days.

have you ever just zoned out, pretty much gone no where in your mind, your not thinking, no anything. its relaxing going nowhere.

maybe its just me.

well

i cant put everything down but here's something

recently i tried talking to this guy. and i found out he is really amazing.

he and i talked for a while, i found myself trusting him a lot, which is weird.

because the last few guys i trusted with everything, stabbed me in the back, told me i was stupid and pathetic.

i hope he doesn't do the same, but i don't think he will.

he seems like one of those rare guys who is amazing, and not gay.

i don't know. but because of him, and dancer boy (I'm not putting names, because both of you know who you are, horn boy and dancer boy.and i only know one guy horn, and one dancer, who taught me a bit) but both of you have really helped me feel better. made me happy.

another thing i realised... I've changed...

i had a friend ask my why i was so Happy, thinking i was asked out or something. i don't think i was that kind of person, and I'm not anymore.

and i had another friend ask me if i was drunk just because i was feeling amazing.

wow...

well i must bath the dog.

love luck and lollipops

shadowstich

ps. your not the boss of me now, your not the boss of me now, your not the boss of me now and your not so big. yeah they might be giants

why does it need a title. a title usually means its about something specific

well here i am. sitting at the computer. wow how interesting

i have been thinking about what to write in here. and don't know.



when i started grade 10, i thought i would try and get a boyfriend.

I've been thinking about that a lot, and i have realised something. there is only one guy i can actually see me dating. why only the one? because i want to be in a relationship where it means something, where whoever i choose to give my heart to will do the same in return. I've been in a relationship in the past, and it didn't work. it wrecked our friendship, and everything felt wrong.
i don't want to rush into a relationship. i want to get to know them first. i need to be able to trust them. and i need them to trust me back.
for me relationships are not the most important thing to me. friendship is.

i was wondering why so many songs on the radio are about love. its because love is one of the strongest emotions one can feel. but in my opinion, you need to feel something before you can write about it. that's probably why i suck at writing love songs.

well that's enough about love.
hmm... thinking, thinking...
i have been having a lot of fun with electronics. last night i took apart my stereo, as it was broken, and could not be fixed. it reminds me of teem work. a gear was broken in my stereo, and it stopped working. it could still turn on, but it would not read cd's. in team work, we all have to do our part, help others, if someone stops doing their part, it will all fall apart. so we all have to work together.

well that's all i have time to put right now
peace
shadowstich

I have a lot going on in my head right now. So i'm just going to jot it down

Some thing I found really important to me is truth
For me its better to know the truth right away, and then be lied to for a long time, then finally they tell you the truth, and you feel like someone has stabbed you in the stomach.
You are left wondering what you did wrong, but the truth is simple
They never really liked you in the first place.
So just tell the truth. People can change
For me, some people didn’t like how i’m always asking questions, trying to figure things out.
They got so sick of me doing so, and finally just told me they didn’t like me
When you really trust someone and they tell you they don’t like you. That hurts
So for all of you people who are lying to your friends, or me, tell them how you feel.
But don’t just shove them away. Help them fix it or try to understand why they are like that.


Something I wish we all still had. Is the innocence we felt as little kids.
In our opinions, everyone were friends yet to be made.
It didn't mater who liked who, how people dressed, race, religion, or anything else that is so frequently attacked now.
We would just go up to other kids, say hi, and start playing.
I really miss that.
I think the best world leaders, would be kids.
They have no taste for war, they won’t kill others just to get something, and people would probably get along a lot better.

Have you ever just sat down in the grass and looked at the stars?
The best place to star gaze is Temagami.
You can see millions of stars
And the lake looks really nice too.
Everyone should take a while, sit back, and watch the world go by.
We are constantly rushing a round.
I bet that if all of the world leaders took a bit of time every day to appreciate the nature around them, there would be less pollution. As who can destroy something as amazing as the earth.

I really wonder if anyone will ever read this?
if anyone will ever care.
one of the reasons i am doing this is to let you know about me.
let you understand me.
not everything can be said face to face.
have you ever found that talking to someone on msn is so much easier to do then in person?
if you start typing something, you can erase it before you send it,
you cant take back what you have said

we have way too much violence on TV, and videogames
we become used to it. like it's just another thing in everyday life
there is a good reason I am affected by death so strongly.
i don’t watch the news, or play violent videogames.
I don’t watch movies that have death in them
I do read a lot of war books, but only because I want to know what its like, without knowing that when someone dies, they are dead.
If someone in a book dies, it’s just a book. But in real life. They were someone.
So war sickens me, violence makes me sad, and death makes me feel empty and sick.
I want to save them, I want to tell them they will be fine, but I can’t. Because they are dead.


Well that’s enough ranting for now
shadowstich

<(^.^)>

Well it’s me again.

I probably won’t be writing every day. As I have a life.

Random thought

Why is love what we feel in our heart.

All the heart does is supply oxygen to your body.

Wow that was random



No mater how hard things get

They will always get better.

So never give up

Love luck and lollipops

shadowstich

hey everyone

well this is my blog
I know my name here is shadowstich. if you are reading this you probably know me and will know who this is.
everyone needs a way to vent emotions. or they will just build up and explode. when your happy, it usually freaks people out if your overly happy
if your sad you usually get a mental break down
some people use diaries. I am going to use a blog
but what to write about
well I have recently learned a few things
just because one guy you trust, tears you apart and stabs you in the back, does not mean they are all like that.
and don’t do martial arts before a band test

Well there are a few things i think you should know about me
I do martial arts and i am quite strong
I am adhd(Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder)
i play French horn
i write songs and stories
i may start talking in poetry, as i have fun rhyming
im a book worm
im good at dance dance revolution

if you want to know anything else. just ask.

i am going to try and keep this blog optimistic

i may post songs on here, or quote things

i must be to bed now
good night all/any who read this.
shadowstich