i wonder if you know how much you messed me up.
or that i dont know if you did
i used to be certain of my actions
now im so afraid i will be stabbed in the back.
i hate how my best friend will:
a)only read this when i ask her to
b) expect me to stop what im doing when she needs to talk, but say shes busy when i need to talk.


i just wish people could be honest to me.
because im starting to be able to tell when people are lyingto me,
but i cant tell what about
so i assume the worst.

and i think i just lost someone as a friend
but i think he was doing what someone else did.
pretending to be my friend out of pity.


im starting to doubt there is a god
because my prayers are never answered.

and i have listened to a song repeatedly

a guy named mike sent it to me

hes really really awesome
but hes 21
which means just friends

which sucks
i hate being 16
because im suposed to be mature, but i cant be an adult.

sorry about the rant
Shadowstich