sometimes i wonder what is going to happen
and sometimes?
im scared.
maybe kingsley was right.
maybe no one will ever love me.
is that too depressing?
maybe after giving up everything for one guy...
maybe its become hard.

but maybe i found a guy who makes things worth it again.
maybe he makes my world spin faster, and time stand still.
you know... after the last guy... i never thought i could move on, or feel that way about another.
and yet... hes different.
and i have moved on.
and then some.

so im working nights now. just on break. woo
yay working from 10 pm to 6 am
but the pay is good.
although it gives me time to think.


what am i doing with my life
where am i going to go?

i moved out.
im living on my own.

i never thought growing up would be this hard.

i listen to music a lot while working night.

and a few lyrics stick in my mind

"thank you, you made my mind up for me, when youm started to ignore me, do you see a single tear, it isn't gonna happen here"

"the last time i saw you you turned away, i said hello but you kept on walking"

"where to begin, lets start with the end, this black and white photo, never captured my skin, once it was torn, by an enemy thorn, straight through the core, the war was in color"

well back to work.