death feels so tempting
and life so resenting
and you cant face a new day
the words people will say
your lifes not worth living
nothing worth forgiving
anger inside
fear that you hide
cause no one will care
so you just wont be there
lifes just a toy
well guess what boy
ive been there too
so no, its not just you
ive been scared and lost
ive been torn and tossed
like yesterdays garbage
worthless
but i made it through
so why cant you.
there are people who care
people who want you there
people like me
so why dont you see
suicides not painless
so dont be so brainless
you think pain is a need
makes problems recede
well maybe your wrong
cause the darkness is cold
full of stories untold
about evil and pain
driving people insane
you may think thats fun
but wait till its done
with your broken body
nothing left but regrets
...
you asked why i care
well boy ive been there
with no one to help
you may not beleive me
but i know what your going through.

wanna know what got me through all this?
a few good friends
a guy who i both love and hate, cause he showed me why to live, and gave me another reason to live, one of the reasons i cant just end my own life is that he spent so much time helping me... and i cant waste that. hes probably one of the most amaizing people i know. i really want to talk to him again... but i dont know if that will ever happen...


another guy, who made it pretty hard to kill myself even if i lost control, cause i will never break a promise, not without permission...

and my best friend, who was with me closer to the end, but is still with me now... i love her, and she helps me stay happy

martial arts and song writing also helped.

so how do i put this
please dont give up
cause honestly i care... a lot
and id miss you a lot.
i mean that truthfully.


there is something i strongly beleive

Dance like you mean it
Sing like you feel it
Love till you show it
Live till you know it

what does that mean?
dance like a madman, like no one is watching
sing untill you can actually feel the music, and become it
love people and show that you do, cause that makes a difference
live and try to understand why you should instead of excuses of why you shouldnt.