well
im in write rapidly mood
because i want to take my mind off things
why
because my currint situation is a horid one
i got 62 in math... so i need to pay a teacher from school to teach me both 10 and 20 pure in the month of july
oh yay
love is a horibvle wonderfull feeling
and the only way i can describe how i feel is this
its from a manga called "Loveless"
"i want to be around you... but... it hurts to be around you"

work...
yes i have a job at a place that sells silver shprts.
and crocs
whats with crocs that make them so popular
they look stupid and are silver or gold
WHY
MUST
THEY
BE
SO
POPULAR


i found something else out
whem people are negitive towards me i am overly happy towards them
today i had to fake being hapy so much i became peppier then a chearleading squad

my emotions want to die

i also really want to cry
because inside i hurt so much right now
but its because i care way too much...
and i keep getting close to crying
but i stop myself
because i hate showing weeknesses
so soon im going to watch a really sad movie and cry for maybe 3 hours

this hiding emotions cant be good for me.

Bob: "is it time to do random dedications???" *looks hopefull*
Shadowstich: "i dont think so bob" *yawns*



did i get your hopes up???
i dont think so

because that would be so creepy


aparently im a really creppy person
Situation#1
Shadowstich *appears in the missle of a shirt rack* "Hi. May i help YOU????"
Person 1 "AHHHHHH"


situation #2
Shadowstch:"hi your total comes to 10.50"
person 2: "ok" *pays*
Shadowstich: "Have a FUNtastical day"
(person one fainted)


Forwars: person one did not exist... except for in my co-workers mind




anyways
im just going to keep writing
because it makes me feel better


and i need to feel better
i wonder if there is a word limit
or if you just skim over my random ranting

i wonder a lot


new song stuff
yess its similer to away from here
but i like it


way different tune

as the days go by they fade in to your memories

and all thats left behind from them is uncertanties

and you question every move that you make

and your way to worried about making a mistake

and it feels like your falling

yeah feels like your falling

it feels like your falling

in love

thats all i really have right now


its a love song
if you cant tell


im repeating some words in my head right now
"my readers aree not idiots...my readers aree not idiots"

yes
i know you people are smart


otherwise i wouldnt put complicating wrds in this

if i ever do
ONOMATIPEIA
there you go

well my week is free except for wendsday
and i want to hang out with yu lovley people
so CALL
as i dont have computers on schooldays
or weekdays
whatever you want to call them

i noticed something else
when im trying not to cry i usually sing a song called
Better Than This
by
Busted



i dont know why
but it could be why i sing with a british accent sometimes
and just some words
i think


my feet hurt so much
it burns to walk on them


liustening to ignorance
words that stick out
"They wont let go... when you see them coming, please let me know"

i love those lines
"if fools were ment to fuck you then why do fools fall in love?"
very good question duggie

next song
i cant take my eyes off of you
from high school musical
i love ryan
cause hes so gay
and hes totally my vocal range one octive lower


birds and boats
by
gregory and the hawk
the most amaizing song
and it nearly is making me cry as i type it
it could be because its such a sweet song
or maybe because it reminds me of the paso
a little under a year ago
the scene: wabikon
triplet c is singing this cong

i miss everyone except this one girl
who really hated me

now its walk in the sun
which reminds me g... what happened to your teaching me

the reason i bring this up is because of the lines
"sitting and watching the world going by
is it true when we die we go up to the sky?

now its yellowcard and i will stop this for now


ah im feeling somewhat better now
because i needed to get some stuff out
even if it doesnt actually say anything
g... i know you read this, and its why i keep doing this...
and it always makes me feel better.
your a great guy, and you look so cute in your grade 10 yearbook pict...
i hope next year i can have you as a section leader.

N. well i just told you to read this.
i think your an absolutley amaizing gall
and im making you read this so i love you...

J. im so tired from the sleepover
but good times
coming soon you and me rockband

Zuli. im sorry... thats all i can say
is im so fucking sorry

C. have fun in quebec

me: your readers are not idiots...

bob... i hope your happy with fred

steph... there you go... anything new to go with bob and john???

and im off to bed as ive spent too long ttyping
so goodnight all
PEACE OUT
*starts hickuping*
well i *hick* had the hickups for *hic* 2 hours *hic* while i worked so i *hic* was like " hi *hic* can i *hic* help you *hic*

yes
it hurt after a few hours

goodnight
SHADOWSTICH THE TIRED